Ghosts in Paris
It kept catching my eye as we sped by. A clean, prosperous beige hotel with grand windows and a tea room. Perhaps it was the tea room that caught my eye. One day, another day, "That looks like a nice place," I would comment as our cab darted off on another adventure. We were always passing, going somewhere else. but for whatever reason, that somewhere else seemed to be in line with the hotel.
My friend had gone off on a train to see a castle that stretched from one side of a river to the other. During WWII, if you could make it to one side, you were safe, as the other side came out in Free France.
She would be a bit late getting back to Paris, and would I just pick something near and quick for dinner?
That is how we came to dine at the Hotel Lutetia, a clean, prosperous beige hotel with a cafe that was black and white and just a bit deco. We talked about her visit to the castle and the stories she heard about WWII. But for some reason I was antsy. I couldn't seem to settle. I ordered veal, which I never eat because I grew up in Wisconsin and I know what they do to those poor calves. The party next to us was loud. The two teenage girls in the party were looking at me and giggling. I knew it was because I was fat and they were thin. I just knew it. The father of the party was a huge man with a red face. He was loud. The teenagers were giggling. I was getting crabby. They were speaking German. Loudly. I was feeling bad about the veal. So I mentally practiced what I would say if the teenagers made some hurtful crack to me.
I would say, "I can lose the weight, but you will always be German."
Now where did THAT come from? That was rude. That was way out of line. What in the world would make me think such horrid thoughts? I didn't know these people. I don't speak German, so I didn't really know what the teenagers were going on about. I was having a great vacation in Paris. My friend was a wonderful traveling pal. The cafe was just fine. It was a mystery.
And then, when I got home, I read somewhere that the Hotel Lutetia was the rendevous point for French Jews who had survived the camps and had returned to Paris. Their families came to the Lutetia to re-connect with them and take them home. Prior to that, it was one of the headquarter hotels for the German Army.
Maybe it was all just a coincidence.
Or maybe not. Maybe you can feel the sorrows in a place many years later. Maybe something does linger. If I do get back to Paris, I'll go to the Hotel Lutetia again and just sit quietly. I'll let you know what happens.